We are arguing almost 4-5 days in a row now.
anyway, i lost count. just everyday.
i wonder if it would becomes a phenomenon.

it hurts me, i get sorry sometimes when i know im in no wrong.
but i know just simple words we could end it a day.
i dont know how long it i can last.

He is speaking to me lesser and lesser time everyday.
not even 2 minutes or 1 today.
when he was the one that complains that i always dont call him to chat wen he's working.
today's abit different.
He said it was his fault, that he wants my attention or smth.
thats not the point.
i cried. Of coarse, he didn't know that. since it is just a minute's time of interacting.


I am the one changing, or is it him?
And my mother is talking damn loud now.

this is just a deserted blog that no one cares anymore.
this is so miserable.
well i will visit you sometimes i think <:


irritated. always come to this page then duno what to say.
today i bought my koko new stuffs (:
got sweet corn, expensive bedding, toilet sand and mineral stone?
haha. i know i had to save for iphone..
but i dunwan to buy a life and just let her suffer in the poor small box.
sigh, i always had this guilt that like i just destroy a small animal's future.
shldnt had buy her at the first place.


me and bibi's relationship had definitely gone off the drain.
i dunwan our relationship to be just as fragile as the others.
but i really cant deny that it is.
what can i do.. i really put alot of effort and hope into this relationship,
i wan to show my mother that this is not just a puppy love.
can i ? im not as sure as i am before anymore.



hais what is my future going to be like...........
so miserable and unclear.