心恢恢

Really quite disappointed again. Hate the fact that I'm actually living in hk.
I feel like I'm totally incapable of doing anything, I cant even purchase a 10 dollar thing on blogshop.
Only can ask him or ask fren.. Totally useless,
Then friend ask them help too much so paiseh.
Sandy dun even bother to reply when I asked -.- (Coz already asked her help me buy 2 dresses)
I mean can't really be blamed since if it's me I would have done the same..
But nw even my own bf conclude that Coz the paying method is troublesome so he gave up.
Maybe it's because of my lousy social skills that end up so pathetic..
The world is merely build on money.. Who would waste their time if there isn't a benefit? Sigh.
Where's all those love that once exist?
He say we can start over again..
Can we?
It seems so impossible to me as everyday pass..
Should I continue hoping?..
Why is everyone so selfish? Even Ppl that are so close to me..
God, I'm Lost.. Do you really exist?
This world is really turning destructive.. Devils took over everyones heart.. Where are you? Can't you do smth to help everyone? Can you take me away too? T.T

Scared

I feel like I'm back to the past.
Where I got I person I want, but nt happy with him.
Is my love really nt enough for him?
I'm crying again everyday, I'm scare to talk to him.
I'm scare to tell him what I feel, coz I know he won't be happy to know how I'm feeling.

i know im so selfish, i write stupid shyt like this even through i know he would see.
Sorry bi.. if i hurt you, sorry....

I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY,
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY.
CAN SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...........

Homework half done, i dunno how to face tmr.

Hug Koko and cry with her in the hot running water,
she seems to be same as me.
Nobody cares about her, nobody really needs her, nobody plays with her.

i want Sandy's shoulder, Ruth shoulder, Daphy's shoulder.
Just a hug, it would made such a big impact to me.
I wish that things was just the same as the past,
so that i won't be so afraid if i fall.
Cause, there's someone there.
But they're all far far away, a place that I couldn't be there.

I don't have the ability to open up,
and find another shoulder for myself.
Koko's what I left here.

The duno how many'th arguments.
i know we couldn't continue much longer.
The day is near, quite near, none of us wants it to come,
I believe.


Not because we don't love each other,
not because we are unfaithful.
I know both of us are trying very hard to mend it,
but im really running out of hope.
I always try to be silent, ignoring nowadays.
it is really not a good sign.


Love, maybe just not enough.
Love needs forgiveness and understanding.
My fault maybe, since none of my relationship really works out more then a year.
tried to change it.


Hais, i dont understand him.
He doesnt understand me.
Maybe im just scare of losing him, coz after that i dunno how to live on.
All alone without any support.
I feel so scare..