Happy Birthday!

A post before i collapsed into bed xD ,
didnt get to revise my test for tomorrow AT ALL.


today is such a busy and bad day,
bad bad day, and thus i got a bad mood like usual.

Suddenly feel like viewing his blog, and i saw some new posts,
after reading it, i cried for like 1 minute, without the help of music,
which means im really sad . )':

(i decided to blog before i view those posts)


After his school starts, many conflicts started by.
He is stressed about his school and work, and im stress too,
so when two people so tired they tend to lose their cool easily therefore conflicts always just come by without reason.


Like today, i personally think its stupid.
and after arguing on the phone,
(its like the first time that i finally dare to raise my voice out and argue back, coz usually is the guy scolding/talking, and me shutting my mouth, must be the influence of R -3-)

anw, after i hanged up i went daydream on my way home.
its like plucking my earpiece into my ears but forgetting to play music for 10 minutes?!
i tot i wont cry, but did anyway in the end, for less then 1 minute in the bus.


feel too tired to continue the war with him, so i gave up and pretended that nth had happened.


While on the bus,
many thoughts came rushing into my mind again,
again realize that there's no such thing call "forget" , coz i can only pretend to "forget" ,
abt my past i mean.
situation like today, they would come back and irritate me.


This few days argument he just keep empathizing that his life sux.
okay, i know your life sux, i mean whose doesnt?
i think my life sux loads too.
but whats the point of dwelling on it and crying about it and blaming on it,
when after all the tears and emotions, you still had to live through it,
so why not just LIVE IT and accept the way it is?

Call it fate, destiny, whatever.


This is a really long post, i know.
but not like im going to post again any sooner so just bare with me okay? :))))


My birthday is coming in 5 days,
i personally think its going to be an original day like the rest of the 365 days or maybe with a little good luck along the day :x
i hope if im lucky.

i will just sit at home and AVA the whole day after school right away,
take it as a celebration to myself <:
maybe wait for bibi's present sent to me.
i think that will be the only present im receiving this year, hees better then nth :x

So i will have some early birthday wish coz i wont post on that day i think.

1) Grow slimmer (i got this wish for 3 yrs already, no meaning at all -o-)
2) Get rid of my pimples. (it would increase my self-esteem IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!)
3) Last long with bibi, hope we could live until white hair all drop (oops did i squeeze 2 wishes into 1, hehehe)


yes, may all this come true pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!
especially the 1 2 and 3 one!!!!!! LOL!