i hate blog, but i cant not to anyway.

the pain is rooted in me so deep that a phone call could dig it all up again.
i hate to admit it, but all he said in the past was all revealed again.

he say,
no guys like to see their girlfriend to write emo posts, coz they doesnt want to know that the girl is still feeling so unhappy upon being with them.
i thought someone in love with me would like to know what i really feels,
but i made a mistake, coz its not true.


he kind of scolded me just now.
the person who says he will nvr get angry or hurt me scolded me.
fine, scold in a not so rude manner.
i can see he is trying his best, coz its really my fault.

but his speech stuck me cold.
my heart froze, pain floating underneath my skin.
he reminds me of how Rave use to scold me everyday.
the exactly same feeling.


i feel so afraid and scare.
i hate blogging.